Spisi / Writings

 

It has come, another one

I am adding it to the count

Young, but still have seen many days

I live my todays

look to the right to remember my yesterdays

Face front in search of my future

I stood still

Watching many pass me by

Watching the World wake up and go to sleep

I stood still

Never looked left as I was afraid

That I will forget my past, and not think about tomorrow

But as the new day is born

As the sun plays with my skin

My eyes open

Again, I see

 

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Putting pen to paper sometimes is harder than it seams. Thoughts surge through my mind at the speed of light and I can’t put them all down. It has never been like this. I have never felt loved and lonely at the same time. I guess the days we’ve been apart have left a mark on me. One painted with desire, love, lust…never ending craving for your presence. It is all I need…you, near me, your eyes in mine…the light of your smile all around me, the warmth of your soul to calm me down. It is said that the distance makes the heart grow fonder. You’re not far yet you’re not within my reach. Even when you’re close you seem too far away, forbidden. Still I love you like that. The unknown about you…the taste of your lips, your skin…it is a torture being there, and staying true to the promise, it is.

I’ve given it away

the promise

that never in my life will I spoil the purity of your body

that never will I ask for something you can’t give

that never will I take what is not to be taken

I’m content

I’m keeping it

the promise

and never will I break my word

I dream of all the things mentioned

but time is comming when it all will come true

the moment when I’ll say

it is not the dream I’m in

it is a whole lot of reality

And there I close the chapter of my love’s voice. Close it to until the day comes. The day I can say I stayed true to it, to the promise. And the reward will be the biggest a man in love can get.

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another day is here

I just saw the sun in my bed

saw it opening its eyes

shining down on me

saw the joy of more moments together

saw my darling smiling at me

morning she said

and my day was the best it could ever be

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the sky is dark

stars took their places

rain stopped long ago

it is all silent now

I stop and listen

I hear you breathe

hear your heart beating

I can see the beauty of the soul

yet I don’t disturb

you’re asleep

you’re beautiful

and you’re mine

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Da vas sve upozorim prije nego pročitate ovo, odnosno uputim o čemu se radi. Prije nekih sedam pa možda i više godina bio sam pred izdavanjem knjige dječije poezije sa kolegom odnosno školskim drugom. Elem sve se to izjalovilo. Ali imao sam profesoricu koja je od mene tražila mnoge stvari pa sam tako nerijetko radio vježbe, pokušavajući se staviti u situaciju nekoga, da, kako je ona imala običaj reći ne uništim talenat koji sam posjedovao. Htjela je da i dalje radim na tome kako bi možda nekad došao do nove prilike koju bi iskoristio. Nove prilike za izdavanjem knjige ili objavljivanjem svojih radova.

U ovom slučaju bila je to situacija prevarenog čovjeka, čovjeka kojeg je izdala ljubav, čovjeka koji je slijepo vjerovao i ostao bez svega. Iskreno sad kad čitam, mislim da ovaj uradak ima mnogo nedostataka. Smatram da sam se zatekao u vremenu kad sam htio dramatizovati koristeći pametne riječi a vokabular mi nije dozvoljavao previše šarolikosti. Vrijeme kad je sve trebalo biti tamno, tmurno, sivkasto, teško…sad smatram da nisam uspio u tome…a sjećam se dobro komentara profesorice koja je rekla: “Vidi se uticaj ove novokomponovane narodne muzike na tebe”. Uradak (da ne kažem poema) nema naziv…tu je da je pročitate, kritikujete, možda nekada i pošaljete nešto svoje pa da svi to čitamo, zašto da ne? I da, ovo nije bilo u toj zbirci poezije za djecu, te pjesmice su vesele, dječije, ovo je…ne znam ni sam, vi odlučite 🙂

U sumornu zoru, pod okriljem neba
Kad srce moli za koricu hljeba
Kad duša plače u gnjevu i laži
Okreni se, pogledaj, sada mi kaži

Kuda je otišla opjevana nada
Zašto da bježi, zašto da strada
Zašto da mrzi, breme života
Zašto da tama po glavi se mota

Sakrijem lice pod masku agonije
Sanjam i živim ono što nije
NI sramno, ni vrijedno žaljenja moga
Da krijem se daleko od krvavog smoga

Ubirem cvijet sušnih latica
U zemlji ostaje otrova klica
Raste, mori me, truje mi krv
Sad klizim i pužem, patim ko crv

Okrećem stranu strašne padine
Gledam provaliju spas za ove godine
Provedene u kamenu, gnjevu i laži
Okreni se pogledaj, sada mi kaži

Čemu ta mreža, čemu patnja ova
Smrznuta duša i žrtva nova
Kuda je nestalo lice te draži
Okreni sa sada, reci ne laži

Da dočekam jutro u umrloj nadi.

Neću ovo prevoditi na engleski, prvo jer mislim da neće zvučati isto, drugo jer me trenutno ne interesuje strano mišljenje.

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